In the 21 years that I have lived there today was a first. I just closed up my house and walked away with no concrete idea as to when I'll be home again. When I got back to my mom's house, where I'm staying till we leave on Saturday, she asked me if I had a good boohoo as I drove away. I said no, but it sure was a strange, unsettled sort of feeling.
There are still things to be done such as picking up my contact lenses, taking the dog to the vet,sleep over with my eighteen month-old grand baby Chloe tonight, dinner and movie with family and friends tomorrow night, and a slumber party and gabfest with a girlfriend Thursday night but I'm ready to go now. I think I should go now, before I can change my mind. It's kind of like when I fly. I'm ok with flying but I don't love it,and when I make up my mind to do it (or it's the only option) I want to get to the airport and march right onto that plane and just go..let's get this done. Waiting around unnerves me.
I am really looking forward to living in Surrey.I am ready for this new chapter in my life to get underway but endings are not easy. Yes, I will return to Missouri and to the friends and family that I love, but when I shut the door on my house today something seemed to say that the life I know now will not be the life I have when I come home again...the house may be the same as when I left, but I won't be.
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About Me
- Tamera Jenkins
- Surrey, British Columbia, Canada
- In politically correct language I am called a non-traditional student or,as my mother would say, a late-bloomer. For twenty years I was a stay-at-home/home-schooling mom but surprise.. kids grow up. When my son asked me what I was going to do after he left home I told him I was sure it would involve crates of Kleenex, junk food, and a lot of self pity. He suggested college instead and I took him up on it. I graduated in Dec. 09 with a BA in Criminal Justice/Corrections from Park University in Parkville, Mo. Through internships that brought me into contact with both the victims and offenders of violent crime, I have acquired a passion to assist each in addressing issues of accountability and healing through the restorative process of victim-offender mediation. As a 2010-2011 Canada-U.S. Student Fulbright recipient I will travel this fall with my husband and granddaughter, to British Columbia where I will be attending Simon Fraser University's Graduate School of Criminology. With a superb symmetry, Mother, arbitrator of children’s squabbles has progressed to victim-offender mediator.
May the Lord bless you in your journey. Your friends will be here when you come back and pray for you while you are gone.
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You will come back an even better person than you were when you left, of that I am sure. May God's blessing be upon you all on your journey.
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